Day 3 = beyond denial...

Well, I think it has finally sunk in. I am not really angry, but the enormity seemed to stop me in my tracks today - overwhelmingly under productive. I did check on some insurance stuff, not all bad news. I have a few people asking for resume - tomorrow I will be working on that through an outplacement tele-course and lab, so that should force some forward movement.

Sometimes I think that I just need to lay low for a few days and get my head & heart together. The next minute, I am overwhelming myself with all the things that have to get done. Balance is true need (prayer request). Tomorrow I am starting the bible study, that along with the Al-anon readings, I pray will get each day off to a better start.

We had 'true confessions' tonight, next steps will be difficult and I just have to wait and see if they occur. I will get to talk it through more tomorrow & maybe get some 'professional insight'.

Finally, today we had the Jr. High Girls Baby Shower for Rawney. It was a really nice affair. It makes me so proud to see these young women so full of energy, giving and a love for God and each other. It was also super fun to see how surprised Rawney was and how hyper/jumpy Dave the future Papa was. It was a sweet way to end the day.

Day 1 = what do I want to do when I grow up?

Today is the first day of not being 'totally' employed. I decided that it would be interesting to blog this experience. I will be using a notebook to keep track of my to-do list, but this will be more of the how am I feeling, what am I thinking space.

Some of this experience has been amazingly positive. I have had flower's delivered by a good friend "just thinking of me", many hugs and listening ears, a long distance call from a co-worker in Memphis and an e-mail from another (the latter is a knitter so contacted me via Ravelry). Calls and e-mails from others at Medtronic, checking in on me, a call from a dear friend in WI, my sister in OR, dad here in MN and aunts in IA and GA. My sister-in-law in ND dropped me a line as well as many other friends near and far. I received a card from the Jr. High Pastor and one of my local knitting buddies gave me a gorgeous pair of earrings - miniature origami cranes. Also, all my friends on Ravelry have been very supportive - what a fun group! This outpouring has really helped me keep things in perspective - I don't want to land in a couch potato, depresses state. Even my daughter had some advice - an online career quiz - which I will be taking today. I have even had a few people already ask for my resume (yes, that is on the to-do list).

This morning I am going to find a bible study to work through on my own. I really want God to show me where I am supposed to go next. I am also hoping to get some taste testing cash this week. Today I also hope to clean up some gardens and find our main floor - laundry is every where (clean, unfolded) - and get our older computer over to a friends house to get it up and working so I am not fighting the kids for the laptop.

On a completely different note, this weekend was GREAT! I watched 'Underdog' with my son on Friday night - it was cute. Saturday my dh took off to open the camper - said it went well but the weather wasn't really great. While he was heading to WI, ds and I (along with some knitters from Amazing Threads) went to Shepherd's Harvest. We had a great time. I got my fiber fix and he got to visit and photograph goats, sheep, llama's, alpaca's, bunnies and watch herding dogs in action. His only regret was that I didn't let him bring home a bunny. The Ravelry groups congregated around 2pm at the Kettle Corn, but by then it was raining, so I didn't get to chat long. Saturday evening, ds had a friend over for the night, so I knit and watched a 'mama' movie while they entertained themselves. I was made breakfast in bed on Sunday (thank Dylan!), and spent the rest of the day relaxing. I even finished my Monkey socks (another whole story for later - maybe).

Life is Good!